... and I was supposed to do a new one. I futzed around a good bit with sketches and DALL-E/Midjourney ...
... but didn't get anything quite close enough to use as a base with generative AI. So I sketched and instead came up with the design above. But when I went back to render my design ...
... I found that liked the temp one better because it incorporated the colors and logo for ICRA 2025:
However, I didn't want to just give up; I wanted to do the work to help the team make a concrete decision. My wife vetoed the hands holding the peach as being too suggestive, so I did a partial render of this version:
At a meeting, I presented my various designs and recommended NOT doing further work to render one as I thought the existing logo was working just fine and was already in the right color scheme, etc. The team agreed with me, so we put a stake in this one and I moved on. It left me more convinced that once I move past the drawing portion of this exercise that I want to dig in to both Adobe Illustrator and color theory.
But, it was Drawing Every Day 95, and today, April 4th, is Day 95, so I'm posting it. Note that it was drawn on February 16th, almost a month and a half in advance. That means, even though I was not able to blog per se during GDC, I was nevertheless able to build up a huge drawing buffer and have managed to stay ahead of the game - (30(m+1) + d + 7) - a month and a week ahead, as of today.
And now a neat idea from "Morpho": thinking about the shape of the head as a round ball with a partial cylindrical front, like a face shield. This is surprisingly useful for analyzing the shape of an arbitrarily-positioned head - just trying to make one head-shaped shape is hard, but breaking it down into pieces helps you understand where the parts of the shape are and where the lines of alignment go.
A sketch based on the "Morpho" series of drawing instruction books - I think "Simplified Forms". I've also worked from their "Mammals" book but I put that on hold to dig more into the human form, which is where I think my greatest need for artistic instruction lies as of late Q1 2025.
SO! If I got my blog running back in January, and planned to blog every day, why haven’t I been posting?
Because I also wanted to draw every day … and wanted to build a buffer.
Why? Well, let’s break it down.
First, I want to draw comic books. Yes, yes, yes, I have a webcomic called f@nu fiku, but after I broke my arm, and got my laptop stolen, and found my hand-crafted blog software stopped working, and got swarmed trying to crank out my first four novels … well, after all that, I found my confidence in my drawing had collapsed.
I never was that great at drawing, frankly, but when I was working on f@nu fiku with the goal of cranking out a page a week, I never let my drawing limitations stop me. If I wanted to have an image in my comic, I had to figure out how to draw it, no matter what. But even though I wasn’t that great, I had a level of self-confidence that let me tackle whatever I had to.
But I never gave up on comics. Not only do I want to finish f@nu fiku, I have other comics I want to draw, from Cinnamon Frost and Serendipity the Centaur stories up to and including becoming the writer-artist for Green Lantern. Obviously that last one is aspirational, but I can’t frigging aspire to become the writer-artist of anything if I am not creating comics at all.
But it’s hard to draw every day if real life intervenes (like Dragon Con, for example). According to my records, I’ve tried the “Drawing Every Day” project 3 times in the past, and never made it through the full year once - I lasted 215 days in 2021 (through Dragon Con), just one day in 2023 (the layoffs), and 135 days in 2024 (through the Embodied AI Workshop).
So, I decided to do a buffer for Drawing Every Day 2025.
So, for the first part of this year, I leaned into drawing, trying to get ahead. I decided that I wouldn’t start blogging every day until I built up a buffer of drawing every day, and in an act of quixotic hubris, I also decided to start retro-drawing the missing drawings from 2024 so that I would finish those drawings as well.
But, I wondered, how far ahead should I try to get in my drawings? Following Bill Holbrook, I guessed a month, but once you’re out of January, you need a tool to keep track of what day of the year it is. I wanted something simpler … so I started to think in terms of a simple formula I could keep in my head.
Fortunately (thanks, passage of time!) months are ordered, thus can be numbered. Call the number of the month in the year “m”. Months have a notch over 30 days on average, but for a mental formula, you want to round to even numbers to keep the math simple. So 30m is a good quick overestimate of what day it is in the year.
But 30m is a variable, vulnerable overestimate, as it is more ahead at the start of the month almost 30 days less at the end of the month. You could add 30 days, but even 30(m+1) still has this variable property. So, call the day “d” and add that to the formula: 30(m + 1) + d. And that sounds great. 30(m + 1) is guaranteed to always be more than 30 days ahead.
And … 30(m+1)+d is a treadmill. Every day, you’re just at your buffer, and every day, you can’t fail to lose focus, or you eat into your buffer. That’s no good: the point of the buffer is to get your back when major life events (like Dragon Con) happen, not to put you constantly on edge that you’re about to lose your buffer.
So I decided to add a few more days to the formula. I know I typically draw two to four drawings in a session (sometime as few as one if I am busy or have chosen something complicated, sometimes as many as five if I am sketching). So adding two more to the formula gets us to 30(m + 1) + d + 2 … a number I can easily calculate in my head, and, what’s more, add to my drawings, even if I don’t have internet where I am.
It’s not perfect - when transitioning from a short month, you can find yourself a few days behind - but it’s a number so far ahead that I can skip a day whenever I have to, confident that I will be able to get back on track with the typical number of drawings I do per day. And if I am at my buffer, I can do a “retro 2024” drawing or sketch some idea not on my drawing plan (which is a whole nother topic for a whole nother post).
So. Anyway. My point, and I did have one.
Today, I reached 30(m + 1) + d + 2 in my drawing buffer.
And so today is the day I resume Blogging Every Day, with this post.
It’s good to be back.
-the Centaur
Pictured: Where I am, drawing, and writing, and one of the drawings. And unfortunately, it's too dim to do my normal photo of my drawing for today, so I'll have to scan that when I get home.
Another Goldman study. Interestingly, I had to use Photoshop's perspective warp to make this image have a square box, compared to its original, which I photographed rotated and a little off-angle:
So, this may be my last image post for a bit, as I am traveling to Con Carolinas soon, and even though my web hosting provider says I have 15 megabytes free, Wordpress is perceiving me as having no bytes free.
More studies from Goldman. I'm liking how these are turning out. Apparently repeated practice is doing something for my ability to render - whodathunk.
I'd say, "I'da thunk" except I am actually a bit surprised that there's a cross-training effect going on: that is, I'm getting better at things I wasn't really trying to get better at, just because I have to do them in order to do the things that I really want to do - sometimes improving in surprising ways.
But the drawings are turning out well, so I've got that going for me, which is nice.
More studies of negative space from Goldman. Yes, yes, I know "wza y'ei" means negative conceptual space, not negative visual space, but these hands really do look Lovecraftian to me.
ACTUALLY, there are no more "positive" and "negative" shapes in the real world than there are actual "lines" in the real world (well, even that's debatable, but ...) as the right diagram illustrates: yes, you can say that the hand has a shape, but its "wza y'ei", the negative conceptual space surrounding a positive concept in the Aklo language, does not actually exist for the hand: that negative space itself is both limited and shaped, broken up into negative and positive shapes like the stands for the hands or the frame of the picture. Or, to riff more on concepts from Alan Moore's version of Aklo, defining negative space can be seen as the extended creation of a new positive form.
A little punchy after that debugging session.
Drawing every day, posting every day my website works.
Photoshopped version of the "C Lion" neck pillow that I drew the other day ...
It is interesting how strange shapes get compared to what we imagine things to look like ... it took conscious effort not to cartoon this and to try to make it match its referent, even given that it was a quick sketch.
Even then, I moved the binder clip in the drawing to aid the composition. Breakin' the law!
I wasn't satisfied with the fingers on yesterday's drawing, nor with the fact that I didn't have time to render it, so I tackled it again, as a subject in its own right. I think it came out better, though the thumb is pointy.
Overall, I feel the shapes of the fingers I draw tend to come out fat or thin - I don't have a great grasp of their shape and thickness yet, and perspective is particularly hard.
But then, that's why I'm drawing every day, starting from Goldman's Drawing Hands and Feet.
No rendering for you - I got the line drawing finished just before my late-night walk with my wife, and was about 50-50 on whether I would shade this when I got back - but it was raining, and we did a short walk, and, to our surprise, after our short little walk, the fridge in the kitchen was leaking.
So! Instead of rendering this, I helped my wife move all our food out of the dying fridge and into alternate refrigeration - fortunately we had enough room to save everything except for some freezer-burned home-made ice cream that really wasn't ever good enough to eat anyway.
It's late, and I anticipated a cat would end up in my lap, so just a quick sketch for you. This is Mom, from a photograph back in the day - this is actually the photo we used for her funeral. We think the photograph was colorized and retouched, which was the style back in the day.
Interestingly, the photo was so blurry due to movement that I had to retroject the cleaned sketch back onto the notebook page, which I think turned out pretty well, though you can see a bit of the blurriness left in the notebook page texture. (Update: hit post too soon, thanks to cat, fixed now).
